Call of the Mountains - The wild Desire for Climbing Rocks.

July 5, 2019

The Call of the Mountains - Longing for Mountains and climbing
Cought by the Call of the Mountains

Wind tears the blaring silence apart like a velvet curtain on the stage in complete darkness. Dry grass bends over in the invisible air currents until it touches the dusty ground. A single ray of sunlight shoots out between the clouds like a laser. It strikes on the green hills that unfold over the earth like the fabric of a precious dress. The call of a crow resounds from the stone walls back through the valley, sharp and dry like bursting autumn leaves.


These are the only sounds on that evening, just before the golden hour, before the sun disappears behind the black edges of the rocks. Sure? I am standing at the top of a ridge of hills and stare at the high mountain formation on the horizon. White fragments of clouds hang in the summits, as if they would reach for them with claws. Dark rock stands out against the snow like an interference on television. I am standing completely still. I stop breathing. The wind cuts into my ear with a wild whistling. There is something else.


My eyes are fixing the mountain range - and the mountains seem to look back. I feel something like a second heartbeat inside of me. Something surreal and unexplainable that gives me the creeps. I want to run. Through the valleys. Up to the bottom of the mountain massif. Then further up. Higher. Until the air in my lungs starts to burn and I can feel the pain in my feet. Heat, sweat, cold, bone on stone, sky over head.

The call of the mountains. The call of a challenge as repulsive as it is attractive. Like a siren in a moor. I stand completely still and can hear it. It's a silent call no one else can notice. With the intensity of an electric shock. Here comes the attempt to explain the fascination of mountain hiking.

Hiking to an Ice Cave completely in the Fog

Schellenberger ice cave, Germany Alps, hiking, weather in the Alps
My dad and the crows at the closed hut in the fog in 1999
Throwing your butt into a cable car, taking a picture of the summit, creeping around a lake for 5 minutes. My memories of the Alps, 10 years ago and older. Something you find exhausting when you are a child and fucking annoying when you become a teenager. Something that made me think that mountains were just boring blocks of stone on which it was cold and dull for a long time.
Then suddenly I have images in front of my eye. From a hike to an ice cave. The Schellenberger Ice Cave in Berchtesgaden. Germany's largest ice cave. It's 1999 and I'm eight years old. The ascent takes two and a half hours. I am with my parents and the hike runs slightly out of control because the cave is located at an altitude of 5,150 feet and suddenly thick fog with icy rains comes down. We're sitting at a cabin that's closed. I'm holding on to a sandwich. My fingers are frozen and around me is just a big white nothing. Suddenly a black crow lands on the wooden picnic table right in front of me, staring at me. I'm not afraid of it. I only feel a strange kind of excitement. An excitement that, for the first time, lets me know that there is much more about these terrible stone blocks. It is an experience that seems to have been nailed into my memory twenty years later, even though I can hardly remember the cave itself.

The Calanques: Sweat and a breathtaking View

Hiking the Calanques in Souther France, hiking in France, Nature at Cote d'Azur
The Calanques at the Cotê d'Azur in Southern France

2015. My best friend Dani and I are on a road trip along the Côte d'Azur in Southern France. "I found something we need to see: the Calanques!" Dani says. It is a mountain massif that is lapsing into the sea like fjords. The area is close to Marseille, 12 miles long and 3 miles wide. We decide to go on a hike.

It is hot as shite at the end of September. We're climbing over boulders and slippery rocks. Above us sand-coloured stone, below us turquoise-blue water. My eyes are burning like crazy because of the sweat, my feet are boiling and my backpack is glued to my shirt. But I burst into enthusitic screams as I look around. Next to us the abyss, in front of us the mountain slope with its light green trees, which lie on the ledges like chocolate sprinkles.


When I now think back to those two experiences, I suddenly understand what happened. Between me and the mountains. I can only feel them when they challenge me. When I can grasp them with my hands, when I can press my legs against the stone, when my muscles tremble and when nature can strike me in the face with the force of its sheer existence.

No cable car ride with a nice summit photo. It was the wrong approach - like a miserable first date.

Mountaineering: About Crashing and Getting up again

Mountaineering, the fascination of mountain climbing, Absaroka Range, hiking
Me after the crash in the Absarokas - let's go!

June, 2019. I'm in the Rocky Mountains for five months. Where my boyfriend lives. He spent half of his life in the mountains. He doesn't think 10F is cold and only leaves a burning trail of dust on the trail, while I am snorting behind like a big rhino. We met two years ago out here - on my big solo trip across the USA. Besides a thousand other little things, we share the sensation of adventure, nature, risk and venturing beyond our limits.


In May we are hiking up a mountain slope that does not show any official path. Instead, there are only burnt-out tree ruins and a lot of scree. We are starting to climb up.

"I want to go up all the way. Up to the Hoodoos," I say. So let's go! At two thirds of the ascent it gets so rough that the whole ground starts to slide and we shoot headlong a few feet into the valley. It takes a couple of minutes until we can think again and realize that we still have both arms and legs.

"What are we going to do now?" my boyfriend asks.

"Going further up to the top?" I ask back and set my foot towards the summit. It's not a real question. The summit is the answer. Is it?

The endless Search for the Last Summit

Grand Teton summits, Grand Teton National Park, USA travel, USA road trip, hiking in the Tetons
The Grand Tetons between clouds and infinity

Not really. Because behind every summit a new mountain top is lurking. The hike never ends. The longing to find the point where it doesn't go further mixes in a toxic-exciting way with the desire to find an endless way to go on.

Everything hurts and I'm not even on my way back. But I can prove to myself and the mountain that it's possible. Me and the mountain. There's not much in between. It is neither a conflict nor a true cooperation. The mountain is here and I am here. Being is the experience that creates the most intense tension.

When I go up, I don't want to defeat the mountain. Too great is my respect for the rocky elegance, the brutality of beauty and the rugged silence. Where the air gets thinner and the temperatures fall like the tiny stones under my feet. I don't want to hoist a flag or put a cross in the ground when I reach the top. I just want to be. Feel the cold and the rain, snowflakes on my lips and heat in every pore of my skin. Far away from buildings and infrastructure built by people. From streets and shops, restaurants and air conditioners.

Everything I've got is in my backpack. Water, bread, a map, my camera. Sounds like prison with a view and is the opposite: ultimate freedom.

The Mountain - My Church

Cloud formations in the Rocky Mountains, hiking weather, Wyoming, Chief Joseph Highway
Breaking through the clouds on Chief Joseph Highway

It is the freedom to find your limits. When the supplies are used up, there's no way to refill. I have to take energy, pain, elevation changes and climate into account. But I don't sit down at home and calculate like nuts. I only try to estimate. I try to feel it.

The more mountains, the more accurate it gets. You learn from your mistakes. Up here. The mountains are unforgiving. They call you, only to fall silent. They are not laughing, they are not crying. They don't give tips in advance. Even if you try to determine them in apps and topographic maps to make them measurable.

But the alpine truth does not lie between displays and paper. Reading about 16 miles is something completely different than walking 16 miles. And something completely different than having been walked 16 miles. Being back. Hearing the day rustling in the blood and cracking in the bones. Standing in the shower, washing the dirt off your legs, allowing yourself to get tired and knowing that you've met him. The mountain. Like some people may encounter God in the church.


Mountain hiking is like a pilgrimage - not towards the cathedral, but on the roof of the cathedral itself. When I climb between gaping brown canyons, hold on to rock overhangs with my bare hands and feel the wildflowers singing, I know where the spiritual names the Native Americans have given to many mountains and rivers come from. I can hear their panpipes and spot magical creatures like faces in the rocks, which appear like mystical threats without further geological knowledge.

A Storm of Emotions deep in the Mountains

Mountaineers in the Beartooth Mountains, Wyoming, Montana, reasons for climbing mountains
Find the ultimate freedom in the Mountains

Every place in the world is a treasure chest of emotions. Everyone feels differently about different places, draws different connections from things in the past. But hardly any place is as contradictory as a mountain range. Mountains offer protection, can turn into a rocky nest, provide security and comfort. Then again they are unpredictable. Weather changes within minutes, rain triggers flash floods, sliding slopes. Storms, thunder, lightning strikes. Blooming meadows, clear drinking water in deep lakes, cooling. Mad views to the end of the world. Enthusiasm, despair, courage, fear, loneliness, freedom, struggle. Overwhelming border crossing.


There are a million reasons why someone hears the call of the mountains. Maybe it's not one reason, but a breakneck mix of everything. The urge to get to the top, to test oneself, to find the unique aesthetics of nature, to understand, to feel, to be.


Many people have lost their lives on mountain slopes, crashed, froze to death, starved to death. Many have survived and gone back. Even the typical beach-tourist has probably heard of Reinhold Messner or Edmund Hillary. And declared them insane. Perhaps one must have a sense of madness beside eyes, ears, nose and mouth, in order to be able to understand the longing for mountains.

The longing for mountains is also always a longing for the longing itself. For the wild side of our souls, as it may have been ten thousand years ago. Something original.

Or it's the fact that the mountain exists. And calls. Static. Massive. Silent. And yet so highly emotional.

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